Friday, July 3, 2009
I miss him... BUt wen i visit my two princess at his house.. And he was at home, my feeling is I HATE HIM and wanna kill him.
I miss him but i have to let him go....
On 30 Jun 2009, is my difficult decision that I ever make. He still talking to the gerl that she love or can I say he adore her much than me. I had to sacrifise for his happiness that is to let him go with the gerl. Cos the gerl will not take him unless he is single. I really want this married to be continue but I really cant get over it. I don want to share my love with some other gerl. I don want to sit inside his heart with some other gerl. Everytime I look at his face, I will see some shadow of the gerl beside him. He is suffering with me. Although he want me badly but his heart is still with the gerl. The gerl willing to take him as his special one. I cant stop thinking he with the gerl and its killing me silently. I had to move on. I had to let him go with the gerl. Yes, it will not be easy but I had to. No point staying with him but I see his face, suffering with me. Everytime we talk about the problem, he will console me and hug me. Its already show that I am a bad person. The gerl is so sincere and so truthful. She is meant for him. Sometime, those sweet moments just shattered in the drain like running water. Well, Im surprise that Im losing this war with some normal gerl. I admit that Im no a superwomen who can save the day. I had to move on and cot my life but it wldnt be the same like before. The impact is so hard and now I am afraid of myself. Gd luck with your new life and wish you happy with her. Take gd care of her. You too, normal gerl (Maia), take gd care of him. Dont force him to do something that he dont like. Take it easy and slowly. You need to explain to him and make him understand if you want him to do something.
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